Instinctive making……following your nose………….magnifying glass in hand, walking the steps……knowing but not knowing…………………takes trust, great faith to follow the blood hound……………..nothing is shown fully, a taste…..can you hear the quietness of making……….process…………When you finally piece it all together……DIRECTLY into the void  I see you!  I am humbled by your presence…

Lead is fluid when heated…………….liquid stars glistening, moving on the surface trying to find a shape to mold itself into materiality………………….re-heated, re-formed…..over and over through centuries…..form…..heat…..cast until the next melt down………………..internal alchemy of Metal!  It hits me SMACK  BANG in the face…

And you say…..”do a self portrait”…….every moment is leading into another….a discovery, an empowerment…

receptivityCuriosity takes over and I look inward at who I am….Who am “I”?……..What is “I”?…..I is for Identity……I is for Invisible……I is for Investigation into what I can become…..I is for Invention……..I is for Ideological………….”I Investigate Invisible Ideological Invention called Identity”. Receptivity is an under estimated sense…often overlooked….

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How do you stand up…..She is making a shape in a confined space…… How do you become AUTONOMOUS……..showing you live visual investigations……writing your hands become UNBOUND but feet are tied………it appears the true mask is revealed………..you have no choice but to sit with it……………..PATIENTLY………..WATCHING THE WATCHER.

Watching you…observing what you didn’t do…………..an historical impact…..an event shaped me ……BOUND me to you……………you are gone…….time to unbound….release……let go……..become a voice in the midst of the herd……time to wake up!

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And you see her……she is holding binoculars………something in the distance far away becomes seen……eyes staring right at you…..hands tied and facing away….BOUND…..What is it that binds her……A memory from the past, set up in a scene………….the color blocks your view as the viewer……..the voyeur…….looking in at the inverted view, now who is watching who….who is the watcher?

 

Archive: PROCESS

And it began………October 2016………..but let’s not be too anal around origin…….The female appears to be communicating something……Are you listening, what is she communicating through vision and image?

 

Visionary communication…………..what sparked it to wake up again? All the signs led up to this moment……a longing for you…….one day looking up and seeing the BLUE so directly that my whole being could not ignore its presence any longer…………there was no way to not hear you……………..an original sound vibrating throughout the universe and finally i recognize you within me…

Enter the BLUE…..Out of the BLUE……..”I look up to the SKY and see all the faces……The ANCESTORS are talking…..WHISPERING to ME……………….I finally found permission…………..so many moments combine to open the door…………door to realize your presence………………everywhere it is……

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And the teachings come thick and fast ……………….a huge learning curve…………….so much resistance…………..”RELAX”………Directly!

It would be foolish to think that there will be no criticism of this process of looking inward at a concept of self….ME…..but autonomy allows ME to ask the questions….if it is all conceptual, why should any conceptualization have authority over another? Is there an artistic hierarchy of what is permissible within art land?….surely ME has as much right to have a space on the conceptual stage as line, tone or form?